the baby coma

After I had Grae, I went into what I like to call, “the baby coma.”

I’m not sure if anyone else experiences the baby coma, but for me my world is 100% completely smitten and consumed with a baby and boobs and not a single thing else.  I cannot function with a new baby – my world revolves around the new baby – my world is the new baby.  I have these mystical friends who give birth and then go to Sea World 3 days later, or run a marathon the following week, or stop by neiman’s on the way home from the hospital (just kidding, we don’t even have a neiman’s) and 3 months after I deliver I’m like “oh, it’s not appropriate that yoga pants are my only means of outfit and I might as well just go topless?”.

When people have asked me about having 3 kids, I say “yeah, it’s so great and I love having 3 kids, and that’s good because it’s the only thing I possibly have time for.” I mean, getting my teeth cleaned was a maneuver of trickery and smoke and mirrors.  I love having babies, oh the Good Lord knows I love having babies, but it would be way way easier for me if the universe could give me a serious beat for about a year after I deliver one.

This third baby has taught me so much about patience – namely being patient with myself.  I have had to try to focus on what is best for me – for us – even when the world may pressure us to do different, do more, do better.  I have had to really pace myself after this baby, I have to say no more, I have to take on less.  I have had to be patient with the roller coaster of emotions and hormones a new baby brings to my life.  I’ve had to work on enjoying myself through the lows, and relishing in the highs.

Being a mother is something I really feel called to do.  It’s something I really enjoy and just feel at peace with.  It’s the work that makes my soul feel the deepest sense of purpose.

I know I’m blessed to be doing this work, I am oh so blessed.

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let’s take a tour


In redesigning my blog, I wanted it to be super easy to navigate!  I hope I have executed that, but here is a little tour to point you in the right direction of what you’re looking for.  I added a FAQ page that has been super fun to work on.  I seem to get asked the same questions over and over, so you’ll find those questions in that segment.  If you have some you would like me to add, ask in the comments and I’ll get them up!  I will also be offering new services and segments soon so check back! I’m feeling so inspired right now and can’t wait to share some fun new projects! 


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six months of grae

 It’s almost impossible to think that six months has gone by since I delivered this perfect little angel baby.
She is 13 lbs 5 oz (7th percentile) and 26 inches long (79th percentile).
Her six month appointment went well.  Her heart murmur is still there and we will be getting it checked by a doctor at primary childrens hospital in the next few weeks.  At this point, they’re not worried as much as they want to know more about the murmur and exactly what it is we’re keeping an eye on.  I feel really good about it, though.  I’m not all that stressed.
She is considered a “heart baby” and even though she’s small for her age, for a heart baby she is doing really well.
I mentioned I still hadn’t fed her solids and Dr. M was very surprised that she was still gaining, so that is wonderful news – especially for my ol’ skim milk producers!
She has definitely been my best best nurser, and I’ve had a great milk supply this time, albeit lacking a little on the creamy side. (I plan to write more about my nursing journey soon.)
As the months tick by, I remember how much I enjoy every stage of babyhood.
On instagram this week I wrote that the baby stage is one of my favorite seasons of life – and I mean that from my heart.
I enjoy having a baby in my home oh so much!  Especially this little Golden girl.
Grae is such a blessing to us!
She is so loved and loves us well in return.
She is such a mama’s girl, and she just melts me into a puddle.
If she can see me, she is definitely fussing to get into my arms.
I sometimes have to laugh at the perspective I have now my third time around.  With Harlo so much wound me up, worried me, stressed me out.  With Grae there is this calmness about me, very little ruffles my feathers.  I soak every ounce of it up because I know before I even know it she will be headed off to Kindergarten.
If you can spoil a baby, Grae is spoiled.
She enjoys life mostly when I’m holding her, so holding her I do.  Almost all the time.
She has been in our room until this week!  She has always started out in her cradle and then moves to our bed in the night (go ahead and judge me).  I started realizing that she was waking up earlier and earlier and we were being more and more careful with her in our room.  I knew the time had come that I had to move her CLEAR across the hall from our bedroom.
She is still adjusting for sure, but she has done really well in her own bed.  She still comes in half way through the night and I honestly don’t mind a single bit.  And I must say it’s like a little vacation having our room to ourselves again at night.  We can watch TV and talk and laugh as loud as we want. :) It was definitely the right time for all of us.
I can’t make myself let her cry it out, so I feed her and rock her in my arms before I lay her down in bed.  Most the time she wakes up and I have to repeat the process, but I’m going to roll with it for now.
She now says “Hi!” “mama” “Baba” and “Da!” (learned in that order)
At first she couldn’t get her voice out to mama and just smacks her lips together mouthing mama.. holy heart melter.  Most of the time now she says “mama”, but every once in a while I get little lip smack when I walk into a room. :)
She’s definitely a smart little cookie!
She rarely stops smiling, but sure makes us work for those giggles.
Today she tooted and then let out a big belly-laugh.  She is definitely her father’s daughter. ;)
She fake-coughs all the time and if I’m having a conversation with someone and laugh, she will almost always let out a fake laugh as well.
Ha! Little funny girl!

Another trick she has these days is an exciting one….

Sitting up!
The big girls think this is the best trick yet.
Everyone who comes to our house they immediately want them to see how Grae can sit up “like a big girl!”.
She doesn’t mind the attention one single bit.

She is a pretty flexible schedule baby – as she has to be due to her sister’s busy school and dance schedules – poor thing.
She wakes up at 8, usually goes back down after Stella’s gone to school at 10 for a little cat nap.  On lucky days, she takes a long afternoon snooze after Stella gets home.  Sometimes it’s a couple of hours, but usually it’s more like 30 minutes and sometimes lately it’s like 5 minutes here, 10 minutes there. Oi vey!
She usually takes a cat nap around 5-6 and then is begging to go to bed around 7:30.  Aside from waking up the once to eat, she really sleeps like a dream at night.
And she’s so damn cute, which makes her 5 minute napping days a little easier to digest…

 And I think it’s officially safe to say the eyes are here to stay.  Crystal blue? I mean….

This baby is head to toe deliciousness.
D-to the-E-to the-L-I-C-I-O-U-S.

We’ve been blessed beyond measure with this little blue eyed cherub.

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a fresh start on a bored afternoon

Well I have had an interesting few weeks.

I have stretched, and grown, and been fulfilled in all kinds of ways.  I had gotten myself into a bit of a rut and I am so happy to be feeling refreshed for the first time in a long time.

I had been on a creative hiatus for some time and it is just all coming back to me!  On Sunday afternoon, I decided to play around in photoshop with some design ideas for some branding.  Last night around midnight I decided I would tackle an entire blog re-design to see if I could do it, and by George! With a little help from the mister, I am up and running!

I want to invite you to take a look around!  My hope is that it is easier to navigate, connect and inspire in some new ways.  I am excited for this new chapter.  I’ve made some decisions lately about my business that have been hard to make, but I feel peace in my soul and I’m ready for this new chapter.

Last week we went up to Pine Valley and it was so beautiful!  Fall had nestled in quite nicely.  I could’t let the opportunity pass by not to whip out the camera, so we played in the woods with it for a bit before we headed back home to our date night. :) It’s a charmed little life, I’ll tell you what.

I’ll never tire of those little faces!

Happiest Wednesday to you!


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